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This moved me, because I too struggle with almost nightly (or in my case daily, because my circadian rhythm is so fucked that my most frequent sleeping hours are about 12 noon through 5 PM Toronto time) sleep paralysis. I feel very seen by this piece. I love you, and I feel for you, and I wish you well in dealing with this.

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Years ago I began stepping in to deal with disturbing dreams. That must make me a control freak, but it works for me.

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I don’t believe in sleep paralysis. Like the doctors diagnoses. It’s bullshit. I get that it’s impossible to move. I know. I’ve experienced it. But those shadow people, they are not hallucinations. They are real. Real entities. You are correct. They feed off fear, terror, sadness, lust, all kinds of base emotions. There are so many different kinds out there. I will tell u, some still carry a tiny spark of divine light. Very buried underneath their hurt, anger and brutality. They see into you. You have to see into them. It took a very long time for me to get past my terror. But once you can see into them and recognize them for what they are you no longer fear them, you start to pity them, and may even want to help them. They come to you because you have something they need. So change the source of what they need into something you are willing to give. Forgive them. Tell them to forgive themselves. Help the little light burn brighter if it exists. (Some are so far gone it’s not there, but 80% or more it’s there). Also, if you can work with demons and entities and do shadow work, you can also work with the light, angels and the divine source. Start researching angels, even if you’re not Christian. All religions are connected. Only names and human written details change. You can ask the angels to help you redeem these entities. He will collect them if they and you do the work. I suggest Uriel and Zadkiel, but those are my mentors. Yours may be different if you choose to join the shadow army.

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